Maybe Daniel had wanted to be creative. Maybe it's part of why Louis took a particular shine to him, a kid who so dearly wanted to have that spark, the fount of it pouring out of him— but it wasn't creation, it was hunger. Still is.
He watches Armand sort, not yet compelled to help out. It's more satisfying to observe him, and shift just a little bit to get more comfortable. Practically cuddled up, indeed. He wonders if the ancient vampire would mind if he leaned in enough to nose through his silky hair, enjoy the dense texture of midnight strands. But he's not sure where they land on idle affections. They did what they did, but they didn't go further, and that line drawn is still there, for Daniel.
Does Armand actually want him? ... Does it matter? Is Daniel's craterd self-esteem too good for experimentation?
"I like the truth of things, I guess. Even when it's horrible. Especially when, if my work suggests anything. And the truth of myself is pretty fucking horrible, when you get right down to it. Maybe I've got great self-worth after all."
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Maybe Daniel had wanted to be creative. Maybe it's part of why Louis took a particular shine to him, a kid who so dearly wanted to have that spark, the fount of it pouring out of him— but it wasn't creation, it was hunger. Still is.
He watches Armand sort, not yet compelled to help out. It's more satisfying to observe him, and shift just a little bit to get more comfortable. Practically cuddled up, indeed. He wonders if the ancient vampire would mind if he leaned in enough to nose through his silky hair, enjoy the dense texture of midnight strands. But he's not sure where they land on idle affections. They did what they did, but they didn't go further, and that line drawn is still there, for Daniel.
Does Armand actually want him? ... Does it matter? Is Daniel's craterd self-esteem too good for experimentation?
"I like the truth of things, I guess. Even when it's horrible. Especially when, if my work suggests anything. And the truth of myself is pretty fucking horrible, when you get right down to it. Maybe I've got great self-worth after all."
He's got jokes!